Seen and Heard – Dear America Actually

A little bird told me there were some who took my post to be a promotion of acting dangerously and posing theoretical questions that can’t truly be answered. I’m thankful to hear the conversation sparked. Blogging is a lonely hobby, posing thoughts, questions, ideas, the things flowing through my heart and mind, the things that help me discover who I am and what I think, I send these out into the void. The void rarely answers.

It’s just the nature of blogging I suppose. Or maybe it’s just me, but I like to console myself with the former.

So, it was nice to hear what came out of it.

I don’t think I was promoting foolishness. I actually know actual people who live in big houses and have nice things and will not pray about or consider going to certain places because of their own prejudices and yes, concern for safety. I don’t think it can necessarily be assumed that those acting out of such prejudice would also be acting in the spirit. So, any idea that you would shun the Spirit’s leading and just jump into a dangerous situation doesn’t seem to match what I’m talking about. Follow the Spirit’s leading, but actually seek, ask, heed, don’t just decide on your own.

As for asking theoretical questions. I don’t generally speak theoretically, my husband does, but I don’t. Do I? I don’t know, maybe I do, sometimes I like to ask odd questions like, “Would you rather be a jaguar or a cheetah?” Theoretically speaking, I would rather be a jaguar because they’re dark and mysterious as compared to a cheetah who can just run really fast for a short sprint before tuckering out.

When I asked, “Will you? Lay it all down?” I wasn’t speaking theoretically asking if you would turn from Christ in persecution. I was talking about today, right now, here. I actually know actual people who say they want to serve God with all of their lives, to live radically, communing with Jesus who told people to drink his blood and eat his body. The same Jesus, that those people turned their back on because they didn’t understand. I know people who say they want to follow that Jesus and yet are too busy, too distracted, too caught up in this world to actually look outside of themselves and their own concerns.

My question is: American Church, will you stop running around in circles, saying you love God and yet living your own life. Will I, as an American church member stop complaining about the present light affliction, stop filling my days and my calendar with things that don’t really matter and lay it all down for Him?

I actually live with this little boy:


This little boy actually made in impact in my heart:


When I look at him, I realize there is actually a mother in India right now who is actually mourning, groaning and weeping over her baby boy.

All this America, all this stuff, all this living for self?

It doesn’t actually matter.

Dear America, This is Not a Game.

Dear America, This Is Not A Game

I look at my soon to be seven year old and I see his face, the face of the 7 year old tortured and killed because he and his family are Christian. His father is said to be one of the strongest Christians in their community, many came to Christ through him.

I hear of Christians unwilling to go to certain places, races or people groups. Their own safety more important than those slipping into hell.  I trust in a sovereign God and know that He will make himself known despite a rich and selfish people who think they know best and will not hear His call. But, I wonder, what will become of such a tight-fisted, self-loving church?

We speak of persecution, of being mistreated, becoming the minority and yet we haven’t truly lived a day of want in our lives. Not if we still have a roof over our heads, clothes on our backs, not if we still have all our fingers and toes. Not if we still have our 7 year olds.

We say we want to be on fire for Jesus, but what if Jesus asks us to be set on fire for him? What if our faith causes the stomach of our child to be set on fire? Will God be our God then? Will we still bless His name? Will it matter where we live, who we know, what we have? Do we really think, as those who commune with Christ, that we are above such suffering?

After this many of his disciples turned back and no longer walked with him. So Jesus said to the Twelve, “Do you want to go away as well?”(John 6:66-67, ESV)

Do you?

Want to turn away?

Will you? Lay it all down?

Maybe it’s time we stop complaining about how the media portrays us, stop complaining that we don’t have enough. Maybe it’s time to stop feeding into our children’s innate desire for more things and start preparing them to stand for the King of Kings.  Instead of marching around in circles proclaiming we’re in The Lord’s Army, maybe we could bend a knee and pray for our brothers and sisters being slaughtered for the name of the Slaughtered One.

I just keep looking at his picture. I can’t get his face out of my mind.




Christian Post Story Here: 7 Year Old Indian Christian Boy Brutally Tortured
Gospel for Asia Story Here: 7 Year Old Boy Tortured, Killed for Being Christian