The days here have been a whirlwind of activity. Highs to the heights of the heavens and lows to the depths of darkness. The in-between times have been numbing, robotic, joyous and free. There have been baptisms with proclamations of faith and tears from the three year old who didn’t want to move from the Claremont house. I hear you sister.
The kids learned how to swim recently and treading water has become the norm in the pool and out.
There are times when you can’t catch a break or a breath and you don’t have the will to fight.
Even in the whirlwind, God sustains and carries. Ministry can be the most fulfilling experience and the most isolating. It was this way for Jesus, it can be this way for us too.
But we can’t give up this fight.
For us as parents we are living out some of the best days of our lives. Just out of toddlerhood and just inching into teenhood. Still, the battle for these kids rages intensely and we are humbly crying out on their behalf more than ever.
Just as the lights turn out, a child, not so small anymore, calls out in need. Asking for prayer.
Because sin so easily entangles and the battle is hard.
Another comes in tears with deep desires unmet and the battle with selfishness and overwhelming emotion is fierce.
Across the land, another reaches out for help and comfort as his heart yearns for home.
These kids that have taken hold of our hearts, these kids have come forth from our very bodies, break our hearts, shake us to our core and bring us to our knees.
We sacrifice. We give. We make changes. We pray like crazy.
Because sin so easily entangles and the battle is hard. Because we all struggle with overwhelming emotion and our souls ache for our home yet to come.
My child, I would have kept this weight from you, but we carry this load with you. My child, you are trying to navigate this life and your mind and body war against you, but we are here to help you along.
This place we’re in is difficult and the giving is hard. There is no “fair” in this life, there is only great difficulty covered with great grace. There is great joy strengthened with great Love. Though we be ragged and beaten down, though we falter and fail – we battle on.
With eyes on the eternal prize, we continue to battle and shine His light in this world. We laugh in the light and we cry in the dark, but through it all we rejoice at the faithful love and care of our Father who carries us through.
But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.(1 Timothy 6:11-12, ESV)